TIME TO STOP THE FEAR AND BELIEVE!

I FINALLY realized what I needed to do and that was going to take determination and consistency.  But I didn't know where to start...?

I didn't want to do the same thing over and over again...I was getting too bored with those.  Then I found out a friend of mine was doing some really fun stuff.  So I decided to talk to her and get some information and what she told me sounded great!

I was interested but very nervous and fearful of starting over and failing again.  I was so tired of doing good and then falling down and not getting back up.  I would get inside my head and listen to all the negative thoughts like..."why are you trying again?"  "you are just going to fail"  "you can't do this"  "what are other people going to think of you?"  "once you fail again people are going to say I told you so" and on and on and on.

I HAD to stop listening to those negative thoughts and BELIEVE in myself again.  I needed to do something...I was not happy with the way I was feeling about myself and the way I looked.

For once...I KNEW I needed to do this for me...

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FINAL QUICK FIX...THIS HAD TO BE THE ONE!!!

I was so happy to start this new journey and I KNEW this was going to get me where I wanted to be and fast!

All I had to do was pig out for 3 days and on the fourth day I needed to eat 800 calories a day and use these drops 3 times a day.  Only white meat (4 ounces), drink a lot of water and only green vegies...how hard could this be?

The first day of 800 calories was hard!  I did not feel good at all from pigging out to dropping those calories so fast but I was determined to do this!  It got easier as the days went by and I lost weight!

I was feeling great about myself and enjoying the new me..even other people started to notice and ask me what I was doing...so I told them.  I HAD to share my quick fix with others and help them too.

I did this for over 6 months and it got to the point where we couldn't afford the drops anymore due to my husband getting laid off.  There were more important things that needed paid.  But I kept up on my eating until the day I just had to have something I shouldn't and that was the end of that.

I should have known that depriving myself wasn't working but of course I was too stubborn to listen to my own thoughts and feelings and the day came when I couldn't take it anymore.  I did it again and I was loving the taste of food I hadn't had.  What was wrong with me?  I felt like such a failure!
The ideas of taking diet pills and making myself sick kept coming back to me BUT I didn't want to go back there...it was not good for me.

Would I ever find something that worked?  Would I ever quit being so stubborn and realize what I really needed to do?  I don't want to be a failure anymore.  I prayed that I would find what I was looking for.

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QUICK FIX #3...THIS HAD TO BE THE ONE!

I was at a horse event for my daughter and noticed that her trainer was looking amazing!  I asked her what she was doing and she said she was just eating a lot of protein and cutting out carbs.

Well...heck she looked great and the weight had come off fast which was what I wanted.  So I bought the book and tried it.  Things were going great...I got to eat all the protein I wanted and a few other things but carbs were out.

I have hypoglycemia and I didn't realize this would have an effect on my blood sugars levels...man did I start feeling sick!  I was shaky, lethargic and not clear in the head...what was wrong with me?

I did some research and realized that I wasn't helping myself...I was making myself sick by not having the nutrients I needed.  So I started eating carbs again and I felt much better BUT the weight was not coming off as fast and to be honest came back on....Dang it!!!

So I gave in and tried the whole exercise and eating healthy thing...that didn't last long.  I hated working out and eating healthy was so blah and unappealing.

Back to my hunt for a quick and easy fix BUT would I ever find one???

Well...lucky me...I DID find one and I was going to go all in....heck ya!!!

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QUICK FIX #2...MOST INTERESTING ONE SO FAR :-)

The cabbage diet got old really fast and I was tired of the restrictions and eating the same things over and over again.  So I found something else and this was the most interesting one to date.

I saw this infomercial about putting something in your ear that would hit the pressure point to curb my cravings for eating.  Hmm...sounded interesting...why not?  So I ordered it even though my husband thought I was nuts.

My package came in the mail and the instructions told me to put it in my ear and push on it to hit the pressure point...ouch!  That did not feel good but I was more concerned about the pain than eating...so does that mean it was working?   I kept trying it for a couple of weeks but that got old fast and it did not feel good.  My ear was so sore!

In the back of my mind I KNEW that eating right and exercising was the answer BUT nope...stubborn old me didn't want to go that route.  So I kept looking and found something that I saw other people doing and losing weight fast!  That was awesome and I HAD to try that!

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QUICK FIX #1...

I knew that eating right and exercising was the way to go BUT no thank you.  I wasn't a very patient person and I wanted the results NOW!

I promised my husband I wouldn't do the diet pills anymore and I wouldn't make myself throw up...so now what?

I heard about this cabbage diet and you could eat all the cabbage soup you wanted and follow a daily plan...sounded good to me.  It promised quick results too....just what I wanted.  So I made a nice big pot of soup and ate and ate and ate.

I followed the meal plan and didn't do too bad.  I lost weight and was pretty happy how fast it came off BUT I was getting so tired of eating the same thing over and over and over.  Maybe just maybe if I was really careful I could add some stuff back in.  Sounded good to me.

So I started adding things back...carefully at first then...BAM!  I was so hungry and just went for it.  Big mistake!  My body was craving those foods I had deprived it of and boy did they taste good!

Guess what?  I gained my weight back and more...what was I going to do now?  Back to more research and finding other quick fixes.  I was sure there was one for me.

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THE BEGINNING...

When I was younger I didn't have a weight problem BUT I did have a self-esteem problem.  I came from an abusive home and was bullied in school.  I thought I wasn't pretty enough or thin enough or good enough and I felt like I needed to change my appearance and the way I dressed so others would like me.

I started by taking pictures of how I looked and how much weight I wanted to lose.  I wanted something quick and fast so I bought these diet pills called Dexatrim.  You were only supposed to take one a day...I took 3-4 a day and felt like I was on speed.  I didn't each because I wasn't hungry and to me that was awesome.

I lost weight and bought new clothes that fit better and showed off my figure.  I then decided to wear make-up and dyed my hair blonde.  I was sure I would get attention and friends now!

I did get attention and friends but I had to be careful how much I ate so I kept using those diet pills and if I ate too much (or I thought I did) I would make myself throw up.  I NEEDED to stay thin so people would accept me.

Yes..the attention felt great...but how far would I go?

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